I hate people more than I hate anything in this world. So to sum it up, I hate everything. 'Cause anything that anyone does, I hate. Anything that someone says, I hate. Don't look at me, I really hate that. Don't ask me anything, I hate people in my business. Don't tell me your problems, I have my own that I hate. Anything that involves other people, I hate. Most of the time when dealing with other people I'm dealing with lies and/ or shadiness. Therefore I'm now on this hate train. I'm definitely not a hater like in sense of being envious or anything, I just can't take people anymore.

Almost Always.

We're moving in/ out the 15th. That's the plan and that's what I'm too down for. Finally out of the God forsaken city of Sylmar to pretty much down the street from my school. Less gas money will be used for trips to school which means more money to eat ! Mm and it's kinda looking like my sister and I will be going to New Orleans for Mardi Gras. We'll see. Got my seeing glasses yesterday and my dad thought it'd be cool to get me orange ones w/ stripes. That's more or less where I draw the line for my orange fetish -_-... Played in an intense game today, killed my hip bone. Volleyball will probably be the death of me, just sayin'.

What's scarier... Robot Revolution or Zombie Apocalypse ?

I don't want flowers...

I literally smiled from ear to ear upon finding this. The epitome of me, on almost every occasion.

I'm the girl who's always making other people happy. Well, today you can fuck off. i want someone to make me happy.

Its Monday.

"Mariah, do you ever feel like you're wasting your life ?"


"Only when I'm awake"

Homecoming Week '09

Day One: Clash Day & First Day of Dodgeball Tournament

Day Two: Second Round 2 of Dodgeball

Day Three: Homecoming Court Presentation

Day Four: Hippie Day & Dodgeball Finals

Day Five: Friday Night Frenzy (Powder Puff & Mr. LAB Pageant)

Day Six: Homecoming Game

It's now back to reality.

First of the Month.

I caught myself saying "I like today" earlier today ha. Yes, I talk to myself and that's what I said. Today started out entirely too early, 6 AM to be exact. Up thaat early to get my hair curled and such. It was definitely worth because the curls are still in now (: Thank you Marci for doing my hair and listening to me complain. I love you ! My day was exhausting just because I was exhausted but it was good. Good up until 2:00, volleyball practice. I can't seem to do anything right anymore and it's frustrating. It's even more frustrating when my whole team tells me not get frustrated. This is another clue that I need some sort of management for this anger I withhold. Blah blah, Homecoming Weeek is at its climax and I'm not tooooo stressed yet. I'm taking predictions on what day I might have a breakdown. Tomorrow's October ! One month down for this year ha. Powder Puff Friday, they got me running ridiculous routes but I'm tooo ready (:

I thought it was cute :D

I believe a strong woman may be stronger than a man, particularly if she happens to have love in her heart. I guess a loving woman is indestructible. -John Steinbeck (Author of Of Mice and Men)

Broke my Treo today, VERY depressing. It's ridiculous how much stuff I had on that phone and I think I kinda need. I'm now using this Blackberry Curve that I HATE. Everything is so redundant with random words to explain simple things. Too many words and explanation aggravate me-_-

“The only reason for time is so that everything doesn't happen at once.”

We used to be cool/ cute(; Happy Birthday BJ

I could write a page worth on him but I'm sure we all know how I feel about him and know I'd go on and on. I'll spare you all ha. I could also put all the pictures I have w/ him on here but yea, same deal.

What I posted last year: http://ryahsays.blogspot.com/2008_09_21_archive.html :D

One of the signature poses.

"All of us take pride and pleasure in the fact that we are unique, but I'm afraid that when all is said and done the police are right: it all comes down to just fingerprints"

"The opposite of love is not hate, it’s indifference. The opposite of art is not ugliness, it’s indifference. The opposite of faith is not heresy, it’s indifference. And the opposite of life is not death, it’s indifference." Elie Wiesel

I like that thought better, no death; indifference, not hate; indifference & so on. In every sense that is absolutely true. When full of hate it's definitely not hate. As strong as the word hate is personally I can't hate anyone. I say but I don't, it's just real close. And at that, I am thoroughly indifferent with thought of the person I claim to hate. It's not the same with love at all. If I say I love it's definitely hate. I'm sure you know my thoughts on the rest of the quote. I obviously really do feel indifference, a lot.

Why is the sky blue ? I don't know what you mean, my sky is purple.

So take heed.

Scatter Brain.

Biggest smh for the day. My Facebook will deactivated in due time, I'm still considering whether or not it will be indefinite. If it's thaat important, you can just text me. It's becoming too much like Twitter, when in all likeness I don't care about every one's day, all day long. It's also becoming too much like MySpace, a safe haven for random people to see what I do weekly at least. Also it's too much of the ValleyBoy stomping ground. I still wish there were a DISLIKE button, I dislike a lot of the ignorance. That's my reason for deactivation, there's no DISLIKE button -_-

More or less.

My Joke of the Day: 'Yo mama's so lame she tried out for LAB's Dance Team'

I can't even front though, I went to that meeting today to see what it'd be all about. Quickly realized I have NO time to be on another team. I'd seriously rather dribble a basketball than move my hips at home football game.

TODAY'S KIA'S BIRTHDAY !!

I tried to the whole 'through the years' thing, but all the older pictures are on my laptop. Anyway I love her with everything. She knows everything about me, yes more than anyone else. This weeekend should be goood :D I love you girl !




A lot of birthdays coming up this season and I can't wait.

Sickly like. Aching like.
Sinus Infection & a sprained wrist & elbow.

Hoping to God we don't get school Friday

NO SCHOOL FRIDAY, officially :D

September.

My People.

Grandpa Fred's

Expected.

"Loving life and life is living... very special."

Some things don't change, and other things won't change. I'm dealing with the 'other' things. Nothing is expected nor accepted anymore. I've now accepted that I need stay within boundaries and 'do me', ha whatever that means -_-

Didn't go to school today and I kinda wish I had. "Sucks being sick." I won't explain why that's in quotes but today was almost pointless. Got nothing done, like always. That's expected and accepted, I procrastinate endlessly. Anyway, my life was like put on hold for about a month 'cause I was almost doubting myself but everything was confirmed today. That whole statement should be in quotes... Moving on. I still can't speak clearly. Along with my slight speech impediment, my voice is gone as it has been for about 3 weeks now. So when I call Pizza Hut and talk to a 'foreign girl' she can't understand me. She was later dubbed retarded by me. Said 'huh' about 5 times to me. I mean she could have at least said 'excuse me, can you repeat that?' Smh... Anyway. I sound like a man. Although I can't speak I can still write. Not like write write. No Def Poetry stuff, just a story or two. That's another I can't stand. Those who have a pen and paper & have seen the poetry special at the last Talent Night, you are not going to start writing and become the 21st Century's Hemingway or Confucius. My point isn't really proven with all my run- on sentences but haikus and short stories will not take you too far, get a job. Not downing anyone that is pursuing this, but it's just like these new photographers... mm enough said.

It would be a good idea to not make decisions when infuriated. 'Cause, you know, that means thoughts aren't straight. But my mind is clear, too clear almost. I know what I need, and I know I'm not happy. Lead by example, actions speak louder than words.

Got a lot of time on my hands... no no no, slowly. Getting back to what I used to be, literally. My hair is going back to red, my thoughts are going back to being lonely, my time is back to being mine and I'm ready to break out, & fly... here come the analogies: I'm not ok with my wings yet. They were placed on my sandals, so when they flap I just flip over and over 'cause I have no balance. At my feet is the world, I'm barely floating above ground. Like still considered to be stuck in this little city 'cause I can't go anywhere far. But this is what I expected ha.

You wanna give me what I need, won't cha ?... Who knows the rest of this ? Mm figure it out.

"Happy ending within any ending story."