I used to be so in love with him. (This isn't a subliminal post, I hope he reads this & then I won't have to say words). I used to have whole posts dedicated to him, a lot like this one but stating I was all intrigued and happy. I used to think he felt the same way. Shit maybe he did, whatever. It's funny to think I thought he knew me. He didn't. Because he decides to tell me I'm a liar. Post things saying I'm a liar. Tell the world I'm a liar. I don't lie. Not to him. One time I did, not going there. I lied another time when I told myself over & over I hate him. I don't, there's too much energy that goes into hating someone. I love him, don't know if I could say I'm all in love with him because of how much I dislike him now. I don't care how he feels about me now, I don't care about too much of anything anymore. I wish he cared. But now I'd just wish he'd keep my name & harsh words out his mouth. I know I've kept everything disrespectful to myself.