Monday, July 7, 2008

Um Amen.


"If you don't know my name, just know that I will be saving the world one day. Don't believe me? You should. My plan, notice I said my plan and not dream, but my plan is to be a Self-people millionaire. I know. The politically correct term is "self-made millionaire" but I hate politics and I'm not doing it because of me, I'm doing it because of this idea that was bestowed in my brain and doesn't appear to want to leave. The idea, my purpose in life, is to help the less fortunate and to guide those who haven't peaked over the fence like I have. I no longer stay on the side of the fence full of poverty, jealousy, resentment, anger, broken dreams, and sorrow. But I decided, a few years ago, that I would hop the fence. I'm going to be a tomboy for one minute of my life and do the unexpected, become a self-people millionaire. I say self-people millionaire because if it was up to me, I would live a normal life, married, 2.5 kids, and a dog, but I'm a humanitarian. I'm going to become rich and powerful, not for personal gain, but for my community, my lost race, and more importantly, so my enslaved ancestors can smile down at the results of their hard labor and visions of one day believing their children can open a book and not get hung for it. The fact that their sacrifices and determination has allowed me to pick up this laptop and know how to type, know how to spell words correctly, and display them in a comprehending format then get a high paying job mastering corporate America's culture just so I can one day say "Thanks for the money in this career! I'll be helping my people now with it since you couldn't do it voluntarily, it will be done involuntarily!"… & so what if it takes time getting to the top. It may take 20 years to fully succeed at what I'm trying to do, and it may end friendships that were never real, relationships that was never love, and "self hatred" that I never should've adopted from the United States beliefs on black kids. But I know I will make it because My Creator gave me this vision for a reason and I'm thankful My Creator gave this vision to me, and no one else but me. So to summarize this enlightened moment, a moment where I am not only letting you into this intellects mind but actually freeing you from your own bondage as well, I dare you to find your purpose. I dare you to see the vision I'm sure your creator has made solely for you as well. I dare you to not allow others to live your life for you. I dare you to not care of what others think, to not follow trends, to not develop "swag", to not go to community college first because a university is intimidating, or become a NBA player because academically you think you are incompetent, or become a NBA players "baby mama" because your lazy and don't want to make your own money (not making you a "gold digger" but in actuality a THEIF for taking money another person worked hard for) or have sex with a guy because they are "famous" and want to brag to your friends who are really whores just like you or have sex with a girl because appearance wise she's attractive (and often all she has to offer) or believe your possibilities for success have limits. Success has no limits. Success only has possibilities, infinite possibilities at that. You and I both have allowed our ideas of "failure" to get comfortable. Because we're black, because we're born in poverty, because we're told we have nothing we'll become nothing. How one could even believe that is ironic to me given the fact that the greatest GIFT God has allowed us is being born poor so that we can value all angles in life: black, poor, deviant, agony, scared, one parent, no positive images to later manifest into maturity, confidence, having experience, being financially stable, owning property, getting an education, and acknowledging the first human DID come from Africa so be proud about it. Be proud that people who look jus like you were once slaves and now running for President. Be proud that people who has your skin complexion and have your hair texture built this land we all live in not speaking of just the United States, but Egypt as well. We've allowed this self-afflicted hatred from white people to get comfortable in our skin. But I am here to tell you that there is a cure. The cure is YOU! So hop the fence and if ever you feel like life is too hard, there is too many obstacles, and you would rather go into corporate America with only a high school diploma… if ever you feel you cant hop the fence, imagine this:Being chased by the police, reaching a dead end stopped at the fence, and turning around to surrender, just to be shot in the head, and having them say "we'll just say it was gang affiliated" …that gets me over that fence every time."



Found this on a friends blog & was quite enlightened.

Sunday, July 6, 2008

4th

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& it was a good day (:

Thursday, July 3, 2008

03

Dear World,
You need me. As introverted and opinionated as I am, you need me. With my views and customs where would you be without me? As you take me in you realize the cautionary values you must contain. Proceed at your own risk, although you make risk the most if you dont proceed. Liberation of all that has held you back, will come through me. In the least of boasting, world, you need me. When you come here, check yer animosities at the door. You world, need more. Given to this world are egodriven politics. You need more intlectual superheroes, here for you world. As frivolous as this may sound, world, you are in need of something more than new. Focus, momentum, motive, commitment, honesty, & future is what you need. Not stating my presence divine and others less than above. In all honesty, you cant go on without me. World, you need me.
Yours Truly
& today was pretty legit. Stayed home all day, but got shit done. I had to clean the household yet again in my lonesome. Fold clothes, wash dishes, the grimy stuff. Gave elijah my camera. He really gets the good stuff of me. For a six year old, his photography is pretty inspiring. (:

at the moment i am going through soo much pain its ridiculous. 15hr days really get me. tending to at least three different bite marks procured all in one day. ha seeing that summer08 has barely begun, i anticipate many more marks. tomorrow is fourth of july & im too down for busting a mission out to rancho. family time poppin.


Dont necessarily have any motive for making this blog ha. Just something for me to do when im stuck home bored. So this will be updated, regularly

*With this I only wish to give a glimpse of my life.




"Illuminate me...the closest thing to life that my eyes gaze... the nearest thing to light that i might praise... that astounding beauty that i would parade... master of my mind, my heart became a slave... linger on me... I'll dwell on you... if death is what you costs, i am deceased... only then do i have peace... the sun gives us light... yet your the one that illuminates me"

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&hm my kinda guy. Lil' wayne shooootn





Kia & I have currently been posting about anything/everything.
ATTN: Doo Doo Mamas
Fall Back , Take A Seat , Get Off My Shit , Find Yerself , Climb A Tree , Hug A Tree , Find A Comb , Catch My Fade , Suck It Easy , Wipe Yerself , Kick Rocks & Take It To The Heart.

No One Else



One of the most beautiful songs i have heard. " No One Else " sung by Amel Larrieux. Her music is probably some of the most realest. In love with her Bravebird album, although it is quite old.

"...truth was ringing in your every word.
And every moment since then,
The one thing that i can tell
Is that i belong with you
And no one else. "

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"Today i begin to understand what love must be, if it exsists...When we are parted, we each feel the lack of the other half of ourselves. We are incomplete like a book in two volumes, of which the first has been lost. That is what I imagine love to be: incompleteness in absence."





...would kinda like to know the writer. I agree with most of it, but feel love to be so much more.

01



Never went in naively.


Went in optimistic & open minded.


Anticipated the worst, hoped for the best.


Experienced Love.
-Ryah