Hello 2010 ?

Women- Weak Women

With all the opportunities that women have been given, I am baffled at the general dependency most develop. With all the examples of strong women, I am confused with the lack of integrity. I, myself, am not grown or a woman for that matter, a young lady if you please. It only starts now though. The girls around me are such bitches with no morals and extraordinary expectations. No girl I have ever met has ever seen what she has and appreciated it.

Its obvious females are walking emotional contradictions. But the women who never see her man for what he is, and not what he can do for her are the women that are literally impossible to please. Unless you can turn cartwheels while flipping pancakes they won't be pleased. Personally I want honesty & compliments, w/o 24/7 attention. Just enough is fine. So you will virtually never find a female who will be "pleased" but you will find someone who will be loved/ complimented/ told the truth w/ much appreciation for the principle of feeling like someone is trying for her. -December 15 at 10:51pm

2009

( ) stayed single for the whole year
(x) made out in/on a car
( ) kissed in the snow
(x) celebrated Halloween
( ) kissed in the rain
(x) had your heart broken
() broke someone else’s heart
( ) had a stalker
(x) went over the minutes on your cell phone
(x) had a good relationship with someone
() someone questioned your sexual orientation
( ) gotten pregnant
( ) had an abortion
(x) have a relationship with someone you’ll never forget
(x) done something you’ve regretted
(/) lost faith in love
( ) kissed under a mistletoe

OTHER
(x) painted a picture
(x) wrote a poem
(x) ran a mile
( ) shopped at Hollister or Abercrombie and Fitch
(x) posted a blog
(x) listened to music you couldn’t stand
(x) went to a sleepover
(x) went camping
() threw a surprise party
() laughed till you cried
( ) laughed till you peed in your pants
( ) visited a foreign country
(x) cut in a line of waiting people
(x) told someone you were busy when you weren’t
( ) partied to celebrate the new year
(x) cooked a disastrous meal
(x) lost something/someone important to you

In 2009 I…
(x) broke a promise
(x) lied
(x) went behind your parents back
(x) cried over a broken heart
(x) disappointed someone close
(x) hid a secret
(x) pretended to be happy
( ) slept under the stars
( ) kept your new years resolution
(x) forgot your new years resolution
(x) met someone who changed your life
() met one of your idols
(x) changed your outlook on life
(x) sat home all day doing nothing
(x) pretended to be sick
( ) left the country
(x) almost died
(x) given up something important to you
(x) lost something expensive
(x) learned something new about yourself
(x) tried something you normally wouldn’t try and liked it
(x) made a change in your life
(x) found out who your true friends were
(x) met great people
(x) stayed up til sunrise
(x) cried over the silliest thing
( ) was never home on weekends
( ) got into a car accident
(x ) had friends who were drifting away from you
(x ) had someone close to you die
( ) had a high cell phone bill
(x) spent most of your money on food
( ) had a fist fight
("/ ) went to the beach with your best friend
(x ) saw a celebrity
(x) gotten sick
( ) liked more than 5 people at the same time
(x) became closer with a lot of people

LAME YEAR.

I hate feelings but I feel the extreme. Its either love or hate with me. I'm either completely in love with you or I hate everything about you. Its annoying 'cause I hate dramatics yet my feelings are way too ridiculous to be on an understandable scale. I don't want to feel anything, I don't want to have a strong perception. I don't like being susceptible to unsensible susceptibilities. Mm yea, that made sense.

On the subject of hate, I hate 2009. Still in the midst of the stupidest year ever conjured up by Mother Nature & Father Time. At the end of last year I said I was proud to have come out human. It would be totally invalid to say the same now. Change is great but stability is way better. This whole year was full of unnecessary change. Its about that time for making resolutions & I can't think of any. All the ones that come to mind are shallow & hardly self- fulfilling.

At this point my two options for stability are a prefrontal lobotomy or growing up. Seeing that lobotomies don't always end pleasant, my maturity will shoot through the roof.





DISCLAIMER: This is about no one but myself -_-

Behold

Rise up
My beautiful sisters
Victory is yours

Wrap yourself
In the purple cloth
The color
Fit for a queen

Let all
That imitate
The color of your skin
The fullness of your lips
The contour of your hips
Bow down
Before you
And give you
What you are due

Praise
You are
The ultimate woman
That goddess
On high ground
That all others
Behold

My dad took this and edited it lol and I just found it on his laptop.

Grown- up Christmas List

1. Gas Money


2. Food Money

That's it.

My little GAP model (:

Moving on.

"If my outward appearance started reflecting what I really felt, soon enough I’d be wearing my heart on my sleeve for birds to peck at. No, it’s better to hide it. I’m not who I appear to be." -Othello (Modern-Text)

Shakespeare Essay; Going to be up all night -_-