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“ Because sometimes you have something you need to say but you can’t because the words won’t come out or you get scared or you feel stupid, so if you could write a song and sing it then you could say what you need to say and it would be beautiful. And people would listen and you wouldn’t make a complete idiot out of yourself, but all of us can’t be songwriters so some of us will never be able to say what we’re thinking or what we want other people to know what we’re thinking… so we’ll never get the chance to make things right again ever." — Gilmore Girls


EXACTLY !

Everytime I need something I can't find it. Everytime I need someone they can't help. Everytime I need to do something it won't get done. Everytime I try I can't.

I need to lean on something stronger. I need to stand up & walk. More or less, have a comeback.

The End.

I have way too much sense for people. I have way too much common knowledge. I way too much logic. I have way too much consideration for other people. And I have way too much to do to keep dwelling on one thing. I comfort way too many issues. I contain too much anger. I give too much help. And I really have too much hope. I need to be comforted, and such. I obviously will only find this within myself.

This is my problem: I care while nobody else does. I wish I weren't a female. I just know that everything would be so much easier if my genitals hung down a little bit. This is the very last time its gna be a "Fuck Mariah." The last people I would think that would stop caring, have. I'm too tired.I don't completely give up because I think that if I care, something will happen. Too much of what I believe in is brought to shambles. This is why no one seems to know me: my heart has and will never be on my sleeve. I don't want to talk to anyone about my feelings cause the last people I thought that would stop caring, have. Those are the people I'd probably tell. I, personally, can only give/ take so much. My days are way too long for mental capacity. There aren't enough hours in a day to get anything done, but there's plenty of time for drama to arise.

Original. Done Up.

That's me in the lens (:

I want brown hair again.

Quickly.

I've quickly learned how to end a conversation. One that was going somewhere it definitely didn't need to go. The ones that start with, "how are you and HIM doing ?" Don't even ask how I am doing, just jump all into my business. I've quickly learned how to differ my procrastination. Turned it into patience, doing something productive. Something like sleep, I don't ever get enough of that. I've quickly learned turn to calm down. Well not all the way, I'm still high strung without any relaxation. I've quickly learned to give up. On simple things of course, and focus on the bigger things. Like move on type thing.

" You'd be surprised to know how much I don't care anymore."