Totally free means to be totally responsible

which also means to be totally limited.

Disappointed.

I dont know whats going on. Not on anything specific, well somethng quite specific but i dont wish to elaborate. Just, times are changin.

Anyway, Homecoming weeek. Got signed for dodgeball, on the team Hookah Homies and apparently when we win, we get freee hookah from David. I suck ass a dodgeball. I can shooot a ball but i sure as hell can't aim aand throw one. Oh how i miss basketbal. For the first time in literally 3months i shot a basketball. Surprised myself and made 4outa5.

Season for volleyball is officially starting, first league game tomorrow against Paraclete. Here comes the reeal pain i believe. Two games this week and a tournament Saturday.

Mm back to Homecoming shit. Dodgeball games all week at lunch. Then Friday is POWDER PUFF. Im tooo excitd to play (;

Found out more of the truth today, and someone is due for an ass whoopin. Trying my hardest to keep my composure.

Today was boring, mm im done.

Love ?

My mother birthed her so i have to love her.

um whoaa,

FRIDAY

only part of the day. this was lunch ha, doesnt even begin to explain the shinanigans we got into today.

i stole cake from eric. well not really stole, he offered it and took thee biggest pieces. rena decided she wanted mines.

JUMPD ON BACKS.

These were actually supposed to be candid for Rena's digi photo assignment, but we always lookd.

i like this one better.

yeeea, reall candid....

she's gna hate me lol

LMAO candid shit in class.

I wrote on like everyones arm. hes the only one that got photographed. ha Barbie's lover.

ok so we told this girl we were gna take a picture of her, but not to look. lol and she poses. she's a foreign exchange student from Korea, the only one that speaks english.

hm so that was my day after lunch til the beginning of 7th period. then it was off to volleyball. better day than normal, although my shins hurt thaaaat bad.

After practice Marci came back and picked me up and we were off to northridge. Busted missions through that mall. Back and forth to Abercrombie to visit Shantal. Shes a model workeer there. Most boring job ever. They smile and wave at the shoppers. Mhm yea. Anyway i tried on pants but didnt buy them. then we bought a fcking $19.99 white Tshirt, well i did "/.

I normally i buy the whole mall when i go. Not today. Just got 2 shirts, one hair thing, foood, and ice cream. Didnt buy one thing in Forever21, was quite disappointed in the selection.

Theen we met up w/ Lauren, Gelila, and Selam. Didnt do too much, ate and such.

Ive summd this up into a few words but it was soo much more ha. Oh yea i embarrased Marci kinda, pretended i had to peee but i couldnt move cuz my arthritis was kicking w/ my pengioned toes.

Mmm yea. Weeekend praise the Lord Jesus Amen. (:

My Fourteen Brothers.

I believe this to be some of the funniest shit.

I forgot all about it and i died laughing again.

Looooong day today, just ending right now at 9:26pm.

I promise to go to bed right after i finish this,

it shall not be long.

Just two funny things i heard today:

Talking in US History w/ Marci and Jessica has got to be one of my highlights. For some reason we start talking about child birth. Really cant figure why because i remember clearly we were talking the movie Eagle Eye and Sex and the City. Anyway Jessica feels the need to tell us she had a dream she was pregnant w/ quadruplets, mhm 4 of them. Marci goes, " nuuh thats too many babies. The first one would hurt, the second on crawl out, the third would walk out, and the fourth one would come out w/ a flashlight. " I swear that was theee funniest shit.

Ok, then we had a game today, we meaning volleyball. We playd all the way out in Fillmore. Not a damn thing out there but tumbleweed. And it smelld like ass walking on the campus. Anyway apparently the referee for our game had gotten arrested. He took it upon himself to strip and run around naked on the school grounds. We askd the other girls what happend and they say "we dont know, but the official decided to take off his clothes." Mhm i died from laughter.

Ok gooodnight.

8months today.

I Wish I Could Vote.

Looong day, starting right after sixth period.

For disclosed and open reasons my day went dowhill.

Seventh period for most LABers is the end of the day.

Not for me, i have volleyball. Volleyball is the most horrid sport ever.

Yes i hate all over again.

Anyway, my days dont end til 4:30 because of practice.

I did the whole practice w/ a stomachache, headache and backache.

Mhm that time of the month.

So i was just irritated w/ every single ball that came my way.

I hate it sooo much.

On top of it, I may be getting shinsplints and my knee hurts like a bitch.

Oh oh oh, then at the end of practice i realize my necklace is gone.

Everyday before practice i take off all my jewelry and place it on top of my bag.

Wont be doing that anymore.

Came back at the end and my, well BJs necklace is gone.

Soooo pissed about it. Today was my first day wearing it.

SMH, little Christian kids at La BAPTIST stole my shit.

Then i get in the car w/ my father who i havent seen in a week,

and he makes me remember why dont choose to live w/ him.

I can go weeks at a time w/o seeing this man and he will know nothing about me.

But when i enter his vehicle, that he wont let me drive,

im all of a sudden his responsibility again.

Like he knows anything about me, literally this man took part iin birthing me but knows nothing about me. All he knows is that i have plenty of his social physical and mental attributes.

Got ADD from this man.

Anyway he pissed me off w/ trying to tell me who i should associate myself w/.

Dont feel like elaborating on that one right now.

I cant stand him.

Well i can, like if i didnt seee him anymore id be sad,

he jjust pisses me off.

One goood thing that is happening right now at this very moment is,

BJs getting his tatttoooo !

Ahhhh im too excited.

My father wouldnt take me to watch and such,

But im tooo excited to see it tomorrow.

My boyfriend will no longer have a bare arm, it will have ink,

PERMANENTLY.

Kinda unreal to think about but im excited :D

Anyway back to my life,

Im over it.

My stomach hurts and i cant fall assllleeep.

i have more to say but i cant do it right now.

I really wish i had the audacity of this woman. The things she does.

KESH, to be exact.

She got this tattoo vvv, and i still want it.

Anyway Kesh is this English fasion designer/DJ, who does the craziest shit
Recently shaved one side of her head, and got a heart tatttooed there.
Mhm, this shit vvv

Im down for some pretty randy shit, but maan. Id never ever shave my head then get tatted there.

Lord give me the audacity and the wisdom to know when not to do some dumb shit.

マライア

-my name in japanese (:

Kanye.

Rapper Kanye West and his road manager were arrested this morning at Los Angeles International Airport on suspicion of felony vandalism after they confronted two paparazzi and smashed the men's cameras, authorities said.The incident took place about 7:50 a.m. outside the passenger security screening area in Terminal 4, said LAX spokeswoman Nancy Castles.Initial reports said the incident involved "a commercial photographer, 'paparazzi' " and a camera worth more than $10,000, according to Castles.

she loves me.

hey girl heyYEAHH Mariah is the fucking shit. i have known her since 7th grade but we were not fond of each other, and we both know why. But now we are closer than close. We both have big mouths so when we know secrets, we just tell each other and promise not to tell anyone else. TRUST, we know all the dirt on all the bitches.We are so not fake, only to girls we dont like. haha keep your enemies closer. When we drive we are going to drive to mexico and get drunk, ahhaha ! i love love love bugging her because she becomes so annoyed haha! i am so happy we are best friends and uh DUHHH we always will be. AND when we graduate were going to JUNIOR COLLEGE together AHHAHAHHAHAH jk ! love this bitch. if you dont know her, you better get to know her, shes hillarious.YEAHHHHHH!!!

-marci

Today's his birthday.

highkeey simpin, making a whole blogentry about this boy and his birthday. its reeally ok though cuz he got me sprung, on literal terms. thats ok too though, cuz this is my husband, on literal terms. brent mancini, BJ, is 18 today and im more excited than he is. i really dont wna get all philosophical on how much i love this boy, ha damn MAN, cuz i already know i will go on forever speaking little sweet nothings. but i do ha. i was thee first to wish him a happybirthday and i will be thee last lol.

HE'S GROWN NOW, BUT HE STILL HAS TO DEAL W/ ME (;

I'm Not A Fcking Cookie

Today was one of my worst days. Mhm I had the worst daay. Dont even know when the anger started uprising, oh but it did.

Thee biggest thing that has pissed me off, is me leaving my phone in Cassie's car and have noooo way of reaching her to get it back. Mmm what else ?

Mm i broke two nails today in practice, TWO.

Mr. Nevile pisssed me off today, ooowweee. I asked a simple question about money & the production of it. He decided to go off about the government and some savings bonds.

I have no fcking phone ALL night. Goodness this shit is unreal. No communication all night.

Volleyball found a way to piss me off too. Ha, why cant i just get a good set so i can make a good hit ? No blame on anyone, but that shit bugs me everytime.

I still believe waking up @6:30 every morning for school is redundant. Why do we have to be up so damn early to learn about atomic numbers & how to conjugate words ? With 24 hours in a day, why is it necessary to start off the day w/ the first hours that the sun is out ?

I feel myself getting sick. Constant headaches all day, congestion alll in the face, teary eyes and like my ears keep popping.

Gah fck me. I never ever really show my aggresion/anger, but this shit is unreal. At this point there is NO solution for this. I think all my anger ( whatever it may be from ) has been supressed for so long, that now that i dont have my phone, I can't take it anymore. I feel like screaming, but i dont wna scare the white people. I also think im making a big deal out of nothing

but i really cant control it.

I just neeeda wooosaaah, we'll see how thaat goes.

<3

The human heart can only take so much.
Its maximum capacity is that of the size of your fist.
By definition, the heart is the capacity for
sympathy; feeling; affection
It is the center of emotion.
As contrasted to the head as the center of intellect.
In comparison, the heart and mind never come to agreement
But that agreement can be compromised.
The centers of emotion and intellect can be argued.
Arguably such that your intellect controls the emotion.
With its capacity for feeling the heart can grow;
Mature to the level of intellect needed for such emotion.
As the mind controls emotion,
It tells what emotion to show.
For news of the heart, ask the face.
With the capacity for all emotion
The heart also can withstand both the strongest emotions:
Love and Hate.
Given the ability to love and hate,
and given the ability to love or hate.
With that ability we are able to share emotion.
Emotions, on a mature level, that are intellectually interpreted.
The heart and its capacity shall never be underestimated.
As it will only grow.

Today was rather funny, on some parts at least.

I'd first like to say that i HATE, loathe, cant stand, this year's freshmen.

They bug the hell outa me to nooo extent.

So today in New Hall i was walking to my locker, tryna make the bell and stuff, when this asian boy decides to stop in the middle. Fckd up my flow and shit. This white boy is pushing the asian boy telling him to walk but he won't go. Being really loud, I yell, "GO ! What the fck, WALK !". The white boy turns around, looks at me, turns back to his friend and says, "Dude do you know who she is? She'll beat your ass. Walk."

I didnt quite catch what he said at first but then it made me laugh. It was quite weird since I had never seen those boys in my life.

Anywaay...

Rena Laughs Sideways.

I Laugh At That, Almost Died Laughed So Hard.

F. Like Fck You.

V. Like Venirial Disease.