stilll havent seen either of these movies, and i feel like im the only one.

sucks assss.

told you the story of my life, gave a glimpse of my heart, trusted yer judgment
respected yer thoughts, managed understandings, gave me yer word
sealed with a motion, moved by honesty, realizing the love

kinda forgot about this one.

We all want to fall in love. Why? Because that experience makes us feel completely alive. Where every sense is heightened, every emotion is magnified, our everyday reality is shattered and we are flying into the heavens. It may only last a moment, an hour, an afternoon. But that doesn't diminish its value. Because we are left with memories that we treasure for the rest of our lives.

So i kinda startd a survey on myspace, but then had to stop cuz it was taking tooo long. I had waay too much to say for each question lol. These are the ones i actually did.

Whats bugging you?

-my mother bought milk but no cereal, so i had to eat frozen waffles. the only cereal we have is the nasty-tasting, good heart healthy flavorless kind from whole foods. & then i burnt the waffles in the toaster.

-someone ate my food. i went in the kitchen to cook it & it was gone. BY FAR THE BIGGEST THING THAT PISSD ME OFF TODAY !

-i couldnt go to the gym, no ride. leads to another...

-i dont drive yet, stuck in the house most of the time. fcking sylmar pisses me offf; cant even walk to get to anywhere. just seven elevenn, but their red slurpee doesnt even work.

-summers almost ovaaaa

-how many damn commercials there are. i watched The Best Man today on USA. There were 29 commercials ! yes i counted, smh

What/who do you miss ?
-firstly i miss him, but i always do when he's not in my presence.

-just recently i realized i miss music. i'm not one for all the new hip hop, although i am a faithful listener. i miss duets with actual R&B singers about something with depth. i miss R&B in general, with melodies and harmony, not beats & whining singers. watching a band play as the singer harmonizes w/ the melody the gutarist plays. i want usher & monica to do another slow jaams. i wish remixes were still a decent rapper adding onto r&B song & not just a new song w/ 459398 different people. i also miss hip hop. not the hip hop that is supposedly dead, but the hip hop w/ beat boxxers & story tellers. not the sampled beats from old isley brothers classics, but beats made by doug e fresh. &not the stories on how hard living is, but slick rick stories. i dont believe anyone is the greatest rapper alive, certainly not lil wayne. i actually wish 2live crew would make another booty bumpin album, shit we can dance to. give me something to bounce to like kurupt & dre used to. i miss lauryn hill, her rhymes and voice. thank God erykah badu came w/ another album, still is my shit. quite frankly i miss the art of music. i dont necessarily love music, thats quite definitive but i sure do miss it.
"playas, grab yer dicks if you love hip hop."

-i miss most my friends ha. we are all too busy to see one another this summer.

Hm lalala,

SKATELAND; bynight

& today was by far the longest ever.

mmmmm, (;

& the little rascals is STILL my shit

Mmm so i went to get my permit today, burnt mission. Missd 12, apparently 4 more than I was supposed to.

Spent the day w/ my father & Saida. Buggd the hell outa me all day. Goodness, started w/ an hour at the gym, then off the to DMV, then to the ortho for Saida's teeth. Pretty productive i guess, just wasnt feeling it. I'm sooo down for a trip to Vegas like reeal soon.

“We love because it's the only true adventure”- Nikki Giovanni

Ha, & boy has it been an adventure.

Daddy's Helicopter.

& a few of my favorite things

" When you don't fit in, you are often trying to find people that relate to you in some way, shape, or form. "


Well nobody completely understands me. So I need different people to understand different parts of me. One best friend I have understands my thoughts on love and how vulnerable I allow myself at times...another best friend understands my obsession with myself and knows how to ask me questions I am able to elaborate my opinions on...another bestfriend that has been there since day one and knows what I'm really thinking...I even have a best friend that I tend to look at as my husband...simply because even the things he doesn't understand or agree with, he accepts me for me. How many people can say they have best friends like that?

workout: 40mintredmill, 40minbike, 10mincrosscountrystairs, 30minweights, &30minabs
talk about hell weeeek.

Ha & these niggas. Waiting for someone, hm that i never quite met, in an interview.

Leonard Pearl & Marty

5yrs.

FIVE YEARS AGO tomorrow, Leila Danielle was born in Riverside, California. Goodness seems like last week this child was born. Hm well this was her birthday weeknd so we took her to Color Me Mine. Painted her a little teddy bear plate &i painted a cup ha. It was a good little day (:


THE BIRTHDAY GIRL

Quote For The Day:
“Some say we are responsible for those we love. Others know we are responsible for those who love us.” -Nikki Giovanni

Pretty much sums it up, oh the simplicity.

Sickest shit ive seen all day,

Drama thrives in that of the dweller. Dweller stuck in the past & one who only lingers in the present. The dreamer of the future is emancipated yet hopeful in the dwellings of his choices. Given the chance to choose the future, this resident would thrive on his own fortuity. The drama thrives in that of the dweller who doesn't acquit that of his dwellings. To occupy the sense of this common dwelling, we are shown the options. With a haphazard sense of occupancy our options are limited. By chance we are given a future that we have the choice to dwell in. With our choices we are liberated, but in some cases we are dwelling. Dwelling in all that we choose to be given. Our futures are only chosen by change. That change given to us by our own liberation. Such a change determined or marked by whim or caprice rather than reason. The tenure of our intellect are being possessed with thoughts of permutation. Minds being confiscated by the prose left from the dwellings made in the past. Although the dreamer has not yet reached his emancipation, the liberation comes in the dream of no longer dwelling.

KiaJerkz (9:54:41 PM): But when i look at it idc cuzz as long as i have you i can loose all my friends

Mhm this made my night. Shes been my bestfriend since forever. I believe we have gone through thee most shit, unexplainable nonsense. Doesnt maatta cuz we go back like a culdasac, dont question.

Something i wrote a while ago ha, then i revised and finishd it.

I dont want to be in love.

give me a reason to love.

love & reasoning have no common ground.

the common ground of love is frivolous.

as frivolous as the come.

frivolous meaning unnecessary.

not necessarily needed.

i dont need to be in love.

given the reason to love.

my common ground is common feeling.

the common feeling of this love is comfort.

more comfort than ever.

more, meaning more than before.

before i knew what i needed

ive found love.

no reason necessary.

Buy Me This ?

05

"Innocent bystanders watch in amazement. 'She's going to the top', 'no ones going to stop her', they conclude."

Id like to know how long its going to take for me to get to the top. No ifs ands or buts about it, ill be there. At this point my actions and insecurities are the only thing holding me back. Not a thing will stand in the way of me getting to my goal. Thats the plan reaching my goal. The only thing holding me back is myself. Innocent bystanders have no clue. 'She's going to the top' is a mere understatement. Determination and effort will get me to where i want to be. 'No ones going to stop her' is a prediction. There will always be something/ someone to try and stand int the way. With this said, I really want to know how long it will take me.

Day.

Stayed home all day, yet again. Didnt do much ha. Shit that made me smile thoughthis didnt make me smile, but it made me wonder...