Life is the longest thing we have to do. Everyone needs to stop saying it's so short.That doesn't help the situation. What we all need to do is embrace the fact we will die, and that's when life gets short. At least your life. Others' lives will go on and they too will realize life is as long as you make it. As long as YOU make it.

We all don't need love and we all don't want love. Everyone needs to stop generalizing what love is. Your dictionary won't tell you and you won't know it when you feel it. You can't feel what you don't know. You have to tell yourself you want to strongly feel for something/ someone and you will. After you tell yourself that, there is no looking back.

The definition of happy is not what we make it be. It's what we are told. We are told longevity with the one/ things we love makes us happy. Well, pure happiness in a sense. Just give up on trying to be philosophical on what you think you feel. We're happy because we told ourself we are based on what we are told.

Yes, I made this a we thing. We're all here doing the same thing. Living our lives to say we loved every minute of it when it comes time to pass.

I hated her character in this movie.

I feel bad for Helen Keller and all others who are deaf & blind. All she had was touch and taste. She endured the feelings of touch. The only thing she could do was feel. She endured tastes of defeat, the tastes of agony, the tastes of sorrow. She was stuck in her head, literally to only dream and think of what she tasted and felt. Yes, I'm sure she tasted more than morose states of being. Just sayin', 'cause when it came down to it, all that she wrote that was joyous was of her dreams and thoughts. We (we being the people with sight and hearing abilities) spend our lives reaching for our dreams, hiding our thoughts and complaining about what we feel.

I can see, and that is why I can be happy, in what you call the dark, but which to me is golden. I can see a God-made world, not a manmade world. Helen Keller

“This is to all the ifs and to the wishes that’ll never come true. This is to all the words you never said and to the ones we choke on. This is to holding your breath in that one perfect moment and being terrified that you’ll blink and it’ll all be gone. This is to when it is all gone and you feel like you have nothing left. This is to realizing that it wasn’t your fault. And that they’re never coming back. This is to those who never got to say goodbye after saying something harsh before they left."

This is to not feeling.

I stopped trying & I feel better.

What are you doing ?

Happy Mother's Day & Happy Birthday to Rena Calhoun.

The best mom in the whole wide world and one of the best friends in the whole wide world.

Moving on to CIF Prelims(:

I'm living with two emotional hypocritical ass females while trying to help raise two badass emotional children. I need a massage and an apartment by myself.

You’re beautiful,

but you’re empty…. No one could die for you.

— Antoine de Saint Exupéry, The Little Prince

Update.

Hair is all one color: Dark Natural Brown

Prom is Saturday, May 1.

Golf Tournament is Monday, May 3.

Rena's birthday dinner is Saturday, May 8.

Senior Trip is Wednesday, May 19.

Last Day of School/ Grad Night is Thursday, May 27.

Graduation is Saturday, May 29.

Vegas: Sunday, May 39- Wednesday, June 2.

Camping: Thursday, June 11- Sunday, June 13.

Hawaii: Monday, June 14- Monday, June 21.

The next two months should be grand.

Most beautiful ? Why ?

The fact that these are probably the most humble women with every physical attribute every woman strives for, makes them all so exquisite. I do notice that they are all women of color for I believe women of color have the features of a God made creature. Take that how you want it.

Current Playlist on Continuous.

The only reason I want to see my next birthday.

Just downloaded and too happy:

Love Letter to the Beat Ft. Alicia Keys- Lupe

BossCo.2- Blu

Horn Synth- Lupe

Who Dat- J. Cole (Don't think I like it though)

Already Taken- Trey Songz (Don't really like this either ha)

Both Lupe songs are from is long awaited Lasers. Well at least I am long awaiting ha.

Plain spoken.

Synonyms: Candid, straight- forward, transparent, honest, frank, free, frontal, genuine, guileless, impartial, ingenuous, just objective, outspoke, plain, right up front, scrupulous, sincere, unequivocal, audacios, bold, blunt, unconcealed, frank.

Antonyms: Liar, insincere, pretended, unfaithful, untrue, hollow, full of shit.

"I quit school and its not because I'm lazy. I'm just not the social type and campus life is crazy."

Perfect reason to not finish school and pursue something else. I don't want to sit in classrooms with random people and have to hear what they think about a quantum theory or last night's Laker game. I don't want to go to any drunken parties with DJ wiggity whack on the 1s and 2s. I end high school in a month and I don't want to start the college life. I could barely take the fake ass facade of high school being the prime of my life.

I'd love to see them in the finals.

The boys.