I'm living with two emotional hypocritical ass females while trying to help raise two badass emotional children. I need a massage and an apartment by myself.

You’re beautiful,

but you’re empty…. No one could die for you.

— Antoine de Saint Exupéry, The Little Prince

Update.

Hair is all one color: Dark Natural Brown

Prom is Saturday, May 1.

Golf Tournament is Monday, May 3.

Rena's birthday dinner is Saturday, May 8.

Senior Trip is Wednesday, May 19.

Last Day of School/ Grad Night is Thursday, May 27.

Graduation is Saturday, May 29.

Vegas: Sunday, May 39- Wednesday, June 2.

Camping: Thursday, June 11- Sunday, June 13.

Hawaii: Monday, June 14- Monday, June 21.

The next two months should be grand.

Most beautiful ? Why ?

The fact that these are probably the most humble women with every physical attribute every woman strives for, makes them all so exquisite. I do notice that they are all women of color for I believe women of color have the features of a God made creature. Take that how you want it.

Current Playlist on Continuous.

The only reason I want to see my next birthday.

Just downloaded and too happy:

Love Letter to the Beat Ft. Alicia Keys- Lupe

BossCo.2- Blu

Horn Synth- Lupe

Who Dat- J. Cole (Don't think I like it though)

Already Taken- Trey Songz (Don't really like this either ha)

Both Lupe songs are from is long awaited Lasers. Well at least I am long awaiting ha.

Plain spoken.

Synonyms: Candid, straight- forward, transparent, honest, frank, free, frontal, genuine, guileless, impartial, ingenuous, just objective, outspoke, plain, right up front, scrupulous, sincere, unequivocal, audacios, bold, blunt, unconcealed, frank.

Antonyms: Liar, insincere, pretended, unfaithful, untrue, hollow, full of shit.

"I quit school and its not because I'm lazy. I'm just not the social type and campus life is crazy."

Perfect reason to not finish school and pursue something else. I don't want to sit in classrooms with random people and have to hear what they think about a quantum theory or last night's Laker game. I don't want to go to any drunken parties with DJ wiggity whack on the 1s and 2s. I end high school in a month and I don't want to start the college life. I could barely take the fake ass facade of high school being the prime of my life.

I'd love to see them in the finals.

The boys.

I absolutely loved this movie.

Moving out of the country. To Europe. If things don't get any better. That's where I'm going. Things haven't been good in months. So I think that's where I'm going. As soon as I get money. Enough money. Who pays more? Strip Clubs? Or McDonalds? Nevermind. I'll rob the Bank of America on the cornaaa. Maybe. Shoot. I need to get a dog then. To accompany me. Leave everyone else here. Yea. That's what I'm going to do. I should probably practice my accent now. Damn. Which one? Spanish? English? French? Irish? Italian? We'll see. Wait I have to know now. I can't just go to Europe and live on the street. Actually. I'm down for it. Me and my dog. My puppy. I'll name her after something I find beautiful. In my new European home. One of the streets. Dammit. I don't have a passport. Too bad I can't hop a border. America only borders Mexico. And Mexico. Cool. I need money for that too. Then a Visa. To live there. Right? What if I don't want to be a citizen. You know. So I don't have to pay taxes. I won't work. Just rob banks.

Just bought the prom dress for my Prom. It's May 1st, which is in a little over a week. Then at the end of May, I graduate. That's it. I'm too in shock to say anymore.

I'm not feeling Lil' Wayne's song 'Single' like everyone else on its dick. The video wasn't that great, I don't understand the hype too much. Not really feeling Khalifa's Kush&OrangeJuice mixtape neither. 'Burn After Rolling' was a lot better. Drake's 'Over' video was cool, creative I guess. Either way, I'm kinda really feeling him right now. Hoping he doesn't get overplayed. I'm really anticipating Eminem's album to drop. Hip Hop is looking up right now. Well with Wocka Flocka as the only exception. Whatever, just my opinion as of late.

Ok last one. I just love the way he speaks.

This is old. He has way newer opinions that I agree fully with. Check it out.

http://Illdoctrine.com

http://trust-la.blogspot.com

They're lying to you, keep your ideas. That's all you'll ever own anyway.

Songs on Shuffle. Memories that coincide with each song:

No Greater Love- Blu&Exile; The two years I had with him, regardless of what he thinks.

You Got It Bad- Usher; Fourth grade on the monkey bars, lol singing this.

The Light- Common; When I wasn't allowed to really listen to any explicit music 'cept for Common ha.

The Closer I Get To You- Luther Vandross; Making that playlist on his iTunes.

My Dick- Mikey Avalon; Rollin' deep everywhere, "The Whole Team"

Bills, Bills, Bills- Destiny's Child; That one summer at Westchester YMCA after 1st grade.

Come Over(Radio Edit)- Estelle; Ringtones and iTunes

Let it Snow- Boys II Men; Jammie trying to sing lol.

All My Life- KCi & Jojo; living in Maryland -_-

First Things First- Blu&Exile; Falling in love with them.

Single Ladies- Beyonce; Everyday of my life since I first heard it (:

To Zion- Lauryn Hill; Looking up all her videos and begging to see the Fugees 'cause I thought they were gna do a reunion tour.

Ransom- Drake&them; Using Saida's whack ass Sidekick for music in the car.

Best I Ever Had- Drake; Eleventh grade. Every nigga quoting Drake.

If This World Were Mine- Luther Vandross; The Wood, loving him, that playlist I made.

I'm Yours- Jason Mraz; Marcielaga Lupita

If Your Girl Only Knew- Aaliyah; Grandma's old house in Canoga h.

Going Back To Cali- Notorious BIG; Mad 'cause I got my dick sucked and my balls licked.

Slow Jams- Usher&Monica; Sister Sister, that one episode.

Me, Myself & I; I think we were living in Riverside, either way my jam.

Day N Nite- Kid Cudi; Found it back in my Myspace days, the real version not the wack fast version.

Poppin'- Chris Brown; Getting his first album and being so in love with his little voice.

My Chick Bad- Ludacris; New Orleans

Seems Like You're Ready- R.Kelly; living in Palmdale.

Baby Boy- Beyonce; Beyonce's cute little body & uh this is my favorite song by her.

Love in This Club- Usher; Tenth Grade -_-

I Gotta Find Peace of Mind- Lauryn Hill; Middle of last summer "/

I'll end there, I want to listen that last song all the way through.

“I have never understood the song ‘Infatuation,’ just as I have never understood the concept of infatuation. It has always been my understanding that being ‘infatuated’ with someone means you think you are in love, but you’re actually not; infatuation is (supposedly) just a foolish, fleeting feeling. But if being “in love” is an abstract notion, and it’s not tangible, and there is no way to physically prove it to anyone else… well, how is being in love any different than having an infatuation? They’re both human constructions. If you think you’re in love with someone and you feel like you’re in love with someone, then you obviously are; thinking and feeling is the sum total of what love is. Why do we feel an obligation to certify emotions with some kind of retrospective, self-imposed authenticity?

Chuck Klosterman, Killing Yourself to Live.

When you walk through the halls and everyone smiles, remember high school isn't forever. When he tells you he loves you, believe him but remember high school isn't forever. When you receive slack for your room being unpresentable, remember high school isn't forever. When that bitch says she wants to fight, remember high school isn't forever. When you get pulled over and you're not penalized too bad, remember high isn't forever. When you're not allowed to do much, remember high school isn't forever. Either way, do what you love and fuck the rest.

yes, that is a skirt I have on.