9 out 10 times

I’m not the silly romantic you think. I don’t want the heavens or the shooting stars. I don’t want gemstones or gold. I have those things already. I want…a steady hand. A kind soul. I want to fall asleep, and wake, knowing my heart is safe. I want to love, and be loved. — Shana Ab



-_-

"Love isn't real. Only a desperate fear of someone leaving that people think is love. It's a beautious realization though. Boys don't really care if they lose you. You just become a hoe and they're over it. Makes me laugh at people who love, too. Like, 'Ha! You're scared.'"- Jacks.

I don't know who Jacks is but Precious (xpreciousarianna.blogspot.com) posted it first. Something went ding- ding in my head when I read it ha.

...I wanna love w/ an open heart. Here when I'm all alone, I can turn my head off. Without you I'm just me. Don't fool yourself, I'm probably the most boring person you'll ever meet. See you when you get here...

Things I thought were cool/ cool things that made me think.

I hate people more than I hate anything in this world. So to sum it up, I hate everything. 'Cause anything that anyone does, I hate. Anything that someone says, I hate. Don't look at me, I really hate that. Don't ask me anything, I hate people in my business. Don't tell me your problems, I have my own that I hate. Anything that involves other people, I hate. Most of the time when dealing with other people I'm dealing with lies and/ or shadiness. Therefore I'm now on this hate train. I'm definitely not a hater like in sense of being envious or anything, I just can't take people anymore.

Almost Always.

We're moving in/ out the 15th. That's the plan and that's what I'm too down for. Finally out of the God forsaken city of Sylmar to pretty much down the street from my school. Less gas money will be used for trips to school which means more money to eat ! Mm and it's kinda looking like my sister and I will be going to New Orleans for Mardi Gras. We'll see. Got my seeing glasses yesterday and my dad thought it'd be cool to get me orange ones w/ stripes. That's more or less where I draw the line for my orange fetish -_-... Played in an intense game today, killed my hip bone. Volleyball will probably be the death of me, just sayin'.

What's scarier... Robot Revolution or Zombie Apocalypse ?

I don't want flowers...

I literally smiled from ear to ear upon finding this. The epitome of me, on almost every occasion.

I'm the girl who's always making other people happy. Well, today you can fuck off. i want someone to make me happy.

Its Monday.

"Mariah, do you ever feel like you're wasting your life ?"


"Only when I'm awake"

Homecoming Week '09

Day One: Clash Day & First Day of Dodgeball Tournament

Day Two: Second Round 2 of Dodgeball

Day Three: Homecoming Court Presentation

Day Four: Hippie Day & Dodgeball Finals

Day Five: Friday Night Frenzy (Powder Puff & Mr. LAB Pageant)

Day Six: Homecoming Game

It's now back to reality.

First of the Month.

I caught myself saying "I like today" earlier today ha. Yes, I talk to myself and that's what I said. Today started out entirely too early, 6 AM to be exact. Up thaat early to get my hair curled and such. It was definitely worth because the curls are still in now (: Thank you Marci for doing my hair and listening to me complain. I love you ! My day was exhausting just because I was exhausted but it was good. Good up until 2:00, volleyball practice. I can't seem to do anything right anymore and it's frustrating. It's even more frustrating when my whole team tells me not get frustrated. This is another clue that I need some sort of management for this anger I withhold. Blah blah, Homecoming Weeek is at its climax and I'm not tooooo stressed yet. I'm taking predictions on what day I might have a breakdown. Tomorrow's October ! One month down for this year ha. Powder Puff Friday, they got me running ridiculous routes but I'm tooo ready (:

I thought it was cute :D

I believe a strong woman may be stronger than a man, particularly if she happens to have love in her heart. I guess a loving woman is indestructible. -John Steinbeck (Author of Of Mice and Men)

Broke my Treo today, VERY depressing. It's ridiculous how much stuff I had on that phone and I think I kinda need. I'm now using this Blackberry Curve that I HATE. Everything is so redundant with random words to explain simple things. Too many words and explanation aggravate me-_-

“The only reason for time is so that everything doesn't happen at once.”

We used to be cool/ cute(; Happy Birthday BJ

I could write a page worth on him but I'm sure we all know how I feel about him and know I'd go on and on. I'll spare you all ha. I could also put all the pictures I have w/ him on here but yea, same deal.

What I posted last year: http://ryahsays.blogspot.com/2008_09_21_archive.html :D

One of the signature poses.

"All of us take pride and pleasure in the fact that we are unique, but I'm afraid that when all is said and done the police are right: it all comes down to just fingerprints"

"The opposite of love is not hate, it’s indifference. The opposite of art is not ugliness, it’s indifference. The opposite of faith is not heresy, it’s indifference. And the opposite of life is not death, it’s indifference." Elie Wiesel

I like that thought better, no death; indifference, not hate; indifference & so on. In every sense that is absolutely true. When full of hate it's definitely not hate. As strong as the word hate is personally I can't hate anyone. I say but I don't, it's just real close. And at that, I am thoroughly indifferent with thought of the person I claim to hate. It's not the same with love at all. If I say I love it's definitely hate. I'm sure you know my thoughts on the rest of the quote. I obviously really do feel indifference, a lot.

Why is the sky blue ? I don't know what you mean, my sky is purple.

So take heed.

Scatter Brain.

Biggest smh for the day. My Facebook will deactivated in due time, I'm still considering whether or not it will be indefinite. If it's thaat important, you can just text me. It's becoming too much like Twitter, when in all likeness I don't care about every one's day, all day long. It's also becoming too much like MySpace, a safe haven for random people to see what I do weekly at least. Also it's too much of the ValleyBoy stomping ground. I still wish there were a DISLIKE button, I dislike a lot of the ignorance. That's my reason for deactivation, there's no DISLIKE button -_-

More or less.