2008

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December

It's over.

Still can barely believe it.

I got through it, and remained human.

Here's to 2009.

Red Neck Award Winner.

*click for biggr view.

Got my D100 (:

What does the psychiatrist say to the man that's perfect ?

"& how does that make you feel ?", said the psychiatrist.

What would the man that's perfect feel ?

If a man's perfect, what bothers him ?

No matter what one says to a therapist, the therapist has a prescription.

"Maybe you feel that way because.."

Does the man that's perfect have feelings ?

If a man were perfect, he wouldnt necessarily even have the recollection of a feeling.

Oh how I wish I were that man that's so perfect.

The Bubblegum That Wouldnt Blow Up

Merry Christmas, mhm.


Long redundant night. Didnt get in til 3:52am, didnt leave work til 3:26am.


Payroll crashd. I never wna work again.


Woke up today at 12:48 only from "Merry Christmas" teexts.

MERRY CHRISTMAS, TO YOU & YOURS.

I'm never going shopping w/ my mom again.

gooooodnight.

Working tomorrow.
Like big kids shit.
W/ mom though.
Still supervised.
Ha she's my supervisor
Filing stuff apparently.


I miss my boyfriend.
He's back in 4 days.
It's almost Christmas.
It's almost 2009.
It's almost my birthday.
It's almost jan27.
I'm too excited.


Saida's leaving.
Gone for the night.
Hopefully tomorrow night also.
"My brain feels awful, I have a headache"-Elijah.

Weird Christmas this year. Barely feels liike it.

Today was the last day before break, and it was soo different from previous years.

I normally eat about 25 coookies, 10 candy canes and say "Merry Christmas" 4564858588times.

Not today, it was just different.

Probably didnt help that my associates ALL flaked on me today.

Cept for Jessica of course. Mhm, gotta love her.

It's gna be a rather different Christmas Day also.

So far I'm hearing I'm waking up in Riverside at my Grandmere's house.

But Elijah & Leila will not be there, gna be w/ their dad.

Thats rather strange, not being w/ them.

Mm then my baby's daddy is in Mexico, "not on a drunken bet", for Christmas.

I acceptd that like a month ago, although it still sucks asssss.

Then right after Christmas everyone is going to Vegas.

I get to miss it -_- AGAIN.

They went during summer but I couldnt go because of basketball.

Same reason this time. We're featured in a tournament starting the day after Christmas.

Its actually ok though, theyll be there for New Years. I wna be here, in California, for one of my anniversaries (:

Through all my complaining, everything still works out nicely.

On a very different note, i still feel indifference. W/ many different things.

Like one being, why do I still have to attend school ?

Yea that wasnt really part of my indifference, I just don't wna go ha.

Winter Break Is Here(:

FIVE DAYS TIL CHRISTMAS !

My greatest fear is the day that I am actually judged by the content of my character.

Like seriously, how much can I offer ?

Actually, I dont know if that's my greatest fear.

Well just maybe my main fear.

I know character is the make-up of an individual as whole.

I used to say: "pigs will fly when I am judged by the content of my character."

But thats a scary thought.

In that sense, only God can truly judge my potential character.

So like, oooh man thats even scarier.

The Rainbow That Made My Day

Although I didn't see it til like 3:45 in the afternoon, my day was made.

Was all happy & super excited (:

negligence
noun

the trait of neglecting responsibilities and lacking concern

I think that's what I'd call it.

DYING MY HAIR TODAY !(:

I ate ice cream for breakfast, how 'bout you ?

goodnight(:

Stomach, head and evrything hurting.

I feel like i got hung up on, but like on AIM ?

Went to bed earlier than ever last night, so I wouldnt have to think about anything.

But everything hurts so bad I cant even think of sleep right now.

Frustrated, hurt, scared, confused, and then some.



I can't think straight.

W/ a Boy

Mm so i have two sisters and a brother. My brother, Elijah is all boy. Too manly for my liking.

Earlier we were waiting the car for my mom. My grandmother, Leila, Elijah and I. Elijah states he has to go pee. He first suggests to pee on the street & I refuse it. Then he cries I should take him in the store. Then my grandmother he pees in a bottle. Nastiest shit ever. So that idea is put in motion. He goes to the back of the car and attempts it. Soon realizes he cant do it alone so i get the privelege of holding the bottle -_-. I will never ever ever ever do anything like that again. W/ a girl this would never ever happen. I let it be known I will not give birth to a boy for if i have a girl theyll definitely learn to hold it. Told this to my grandmother:

Me: Yea i dont want a boy at all now. I wont be holding anymore bottles.

Grandmere: You can have a boyfriend but you cant have a boy.

Me: Yes, he doesnt go pee in a bottle.

Grandmere: He'll have to pee some kinda way.

Me: Well i wont be holding the bottle.

(Laugh Laugh Laugh.)

Like my boyfriend and my 6year old brother have the same habits ? Well I mean they do but on different levels ha lol.

15 Days Til Christmas.

I'm only looking forward to two things, my camera & the Christmas Dinner (:

2008 Will Be Just a Second Longer

On Dec. 31 this year, your day will be just a second longer.

Like the more well-known time adjustment, the leap year, a "leap second" is tacked on to clocks every so often to keep them correct.

Earth's trip around the sun — our year with all its seasons — is about 365.2422 days long, which we round to 365 to keep things simpler. But every four years, we add 0.2422 x 4 days (that's about one day) at the end of the month of February (extending it from 28 to 29 days) to fix the calendar.

Likewise, a "leap second" is added on to our clocks every so often to keep them in synch with the somewhat unpredictable nature of our planet's rotation, the roughly 24-hour whirl that brings the sun into the sky each morning.

Historically, time was based on the mean rotation of the Earth relative to celestial bodies and the second was defined from this frame of reference. But the invention of atomic clocks brought about a definition of a second that is independent of the Earth's rotation and based on a regular signal emitted by electrons changing energy state within an atom.

In 1970, an international agreement established two timescales: one based on the rotation of the Earth and one based on atomic time.

The problem is that the Earth is very gradually slowing down, continually throwing the two timescales out of synch, so every so often, a "leap second" has to be tacked on to the atomic clock.

The International Earth Rotation and Reference Systems Service is the organization that monitors the difference in the two timescales and calls for leap seconds to be inserted or removed when necessary. Since 1972, leap seconds have been added at intervals varying from six months to seven years — the most recent was inserted on Dec. 31, 2005.

In the United States, the U.S. Naval Observatory and the National Institute of Standards and Technology keep time for the country. The Naval Observatory keeps the Department of Defense's Master Clock, an atomic clock located in Washington, D.C.

The new extra second will be added on the last day of this year at 23 hours, 59 minutes and 59 seconds Coordinated Universal Time — 6:59:59 pm Eastern Standard Time.

Mechanisms such as the Internet-based Network Time Protocol and the satellite-based Global Positioning System (GPS) depend on the accurate time kept by atomic clocks.

Andrea Thompson

Senior Writer

LiveScience.com– Mon Dec 8, 3:24 pm ET

Getting ready for SATs. Didnt get to take my PSATs this year, but I did quite well on them in 10th grade. Scored higher than at least 75% of students in the nation in all three sections. Thats good right ? I really dont know, havent looked at all the statistics yet. Anyway trying to get ready for that to take it in March, my first real one. Got the practice one in January, the 24th I believe. Then getting ready for the US History subject test. On top of all of it, I have Finals next week. Not tooo stressed, I only have 4 reeal classes that i need to study for and only one C that neeeeds to be brought up. Really just gotta get my shit handled, pronto. Only thing im streessed about is that im broke. Like i have shit i want/ need to buy, but can't w/o my card -_-. Lalala yea.


Besides that, uh its beginning to look alot like Christmas (: Oh man im excited. Alot of big shit coming up that i cant wait for.


I don't wish to elaborate neither.

Modification: Living in my house has eliminated any desire I may have once had to Pro Create.

(No exclamation point needed).

gooodnight.

I have the weirdest brother.

Lalalaal, goodnight.

Had me amazed.

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http://oddfuture.com/

Disappointed.

but 10 MONTHS TODAY :D

& HAPPY THANKSGIVING, TO YOU & YOURS (:

I believe it has been thaaat long.

That long since I've even been on the Internet.

Its like the stone age at my dads house, only TV.

No DVD neither, VHS maaan.

Anyway, i cant even complain.

This whole week was not spent all at my dads house.

For like 3/4ths of it I was w/ BJ.

Thats waay more than half, and waay more to be thankful for.

I can say that I have thee best boyfriend ever,

yes i have that privilege.

I even have the privilege of calling him my husband,

and sounding super simple.

Its too true.

It certainly does not seem that i will ever stop loving him.

And uh not only is it Thanksgiving tomorrow,

but its our 10month-iversary (:

I think ill stop now, because ill just keep going on & on & on.

Um well nothing else has been happening in my life at all.

My camera still refuses to turn on.

So not a plus.

Oh man Christmas is almost here.

Fck me, tomorrow i have to feed the homeless from 10AM-2PM.

Not thrilled about that shit at all.

Then its off to Palmdale to actually eat.

Oh man funny shit Kia said to me today:

"I want Chris Brown to take me down & get me pregnant. And I'd keep it just so i could get child support."

I want to write more but my mind is not letting me.

I need to post more often so i dont have sooo much on my mind at one time.

Lalaalala im done w/ this one for now.

It's happening again, dont necessarily think i can take it.
Im too passive for my own goood.
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I Miss My Hair.

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3Things That I Hate; Not Newly Established, Just Redirected.

1. When I shave my legs and i miss a spot. So the next day in my basketball shorts I have that one patch of hair that was missed. Mm maybe that was too much for some of you ha, the shaving of legs.

2. When I dont do my hair it looks better than when I do. Right now as I'm about to go to bed, my hair is working. In the morning when i actually comb it, it turns out like shit. And if i try the look i got going right now in the morning, it wont work. No happy medium at all.

3. All the blame gets placed on me. Tonight i put a load of clothes in the wash anticipating i was going to be aable to dry them. Buttt nooo Saida's ass has clothes in the dryer and refuses to remove them. Later on my mom calls me to ask me to wash a load of her clothes. That was impossible w/ Saida's clothes in the dryeer & mines in the washer. Mm & Saida's clothes had been in there for two days -_-. Anyway when my mom gets home and her clothes are not washd because of Saida's neglegence, I get blamed for not taking Saida's clothes out of the dryer, putting mines in the dryer & my mother's in the washer. I was apparently supposed to do all this. It was truly Saida's fault but I got blamed. Ha i was told Saida has the "Middle Child Syndrome", but thats a differnt story.

If anyone knows me too well, they know i have far more things that i hate.

I have a list.

WHY IS RAVEN LIKE A WRITING DESK ?

Yea uh this had me occupied for about 2.3 minutes. Click Here. (:

Amen,

Goodnight.